Thursday, September 16, 2010

Adieu



I guess this would probably be my last entry here.

Bukan merajuk atau membawa diri. Saje beralih angin. I've been neglecting this blog pun.

Lieawulf has been a very significant part of my life (would continue to be in a very personal way) and I would definitely miss this blog, this persona. I would however, still use this nick for Idea sepah-sepah, no longer for personal commentary on life and its surroundings.

Seriously, aku tak pandai bid goodbye(s).

This blog means a lot to me. I made new friends, rambled about life, predicting what future may bring, kutuk-ing people and the system, and fell in and out of love witnessed by it.

To say goodbye is like writing a will, you wish you could write more yet it seems like words are escaping your dictionary.

To my dear friends, live life well and always be happy to make people around you feel happy too! Life isn't about gaining as much as possible for yourself, but sharing as much as possible with the people you love and care for. Take care people!

Salam.

p/s: Fynn, hope you don't mind me using your videoclip here :D

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Keeping fit

My weight increases quite rapidly since I stopped all my martial arts activities (wasn't a decision that I have the liberty to choose). Three years ago, I competed in the middle weight category, but if I were to take part in sparring competition today, I'd be in the heavy weight category! Scary!

So, on 1st of March 2010, I started a 'low carb' diet program - agaknya la kot hahaha. I am cutting down on my rice intake...hmm...it's more like cuttinf off rice from my diet hahaha.

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Day 1 - 1/3/2010

It ain't easy, especially when rice is the staple food of your country.
Had an apple and about 200ml of full cream milk for breakfast.
Lunch was rather tricky because I had never imagined myself having a difficulty to choose what to eat. I went to a restaurant and ordered Wantan Noodle Soup.
Dinner - bread and veggie dalca.

Day 2 - 2/3/2010
Haha, I survived a day without rice. Not that I had never had other than rice for the whole day, but to be able to do it consciously, that was quite tough.
Breakfast - two slices of bread. plain water.
Lunch - grilled ikan kembung and bayam.
Dinner - mee goreng

Day 3 - 3/3/2010
I'm getting the hang of this! Hehehe
Breakfast - 4 pieces of nugget
Lunch - Fried macaroni and a small portion of lasagna
Dinner - Bread, beef rendang and sambal sardin

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I think I'm going to survive this! Besides, my mom is very supportive hahaha.

Soon, I'll be taking my 3rd dan grading test! ^__^

Monday, January 25, 2010

Aizati Aziz - Kenangan Terindah Tercipta

Life is full of surprises...

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Dedikasi buat kak Aizati Aziz, insan yang pernah menyentuh hati-hati setiap yang berada dekat dengannya...

Hari ini aku belajar erti sebenar menjadi pendidik, terima kasih pada mereka2 yang telah menuliskan entri berkenaan kak Aizati. Hari ini aku banyak belajar. Terima kasih kak Aizati. I love you very much and semoga kak Aizati ketemukan kebahagiaan yang abadi di sana.

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(first published at facebook.com)
24/01/2010

Saat aku tuliskan nota ini, berlinangan airmata membasahi jari jemari yang memetik keyboard ini. Entah kenapa kali ini aku begitu terkesan dengan pemergian ini. Kak Aizati, a dear friend of mine, and the wife to my adopted brother, Luqman, was killed in a road accident in Alor Star today. Her hubby was there witnessing the incident. Her daughter, Nadirah is about Fidaa's age. Al - Fatihah buat kak Aizati, semoga diampunkan segala dosa, dirahmati Allah dan diberikan kebahagiaan di negeri yang abadi. Buat abang Luqman, I won't pretend that I understand your loss...tapi percayalah, segala sesuatu yang berlaku Allah lebih mengetahui mengapa ia terjadi. Moga Allah berikan kamu sekeluarga kekuatan dan ketenangan untuk meredhai pemergian orang yang dikasihi.

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Aizati Aziz - Kenangan Terindah Tercipta
(1975 - 2010)

MAUT itu amat menyakitkan
tapi bukan bagi yang meninggalkan

MATI itu amat dideritai
tetapi bukan oleh si mati

PEMERGIAN itu amat menyeksakan
tapi bukan dirasa oleh yang telah pergi

Hari ini aku kehilangan
sebahagian hidupku
separuh nafasku
setengah tawaku

Hari ini
sebahagian aku mati bersamanya
jasad yang tertinggal terbeban rasa
jiwa yang pergi ku tahu takkan kembali

Moga Allah mengasihi dan meredhaimu
hingga hujung dunia
dan moga yang hidup terus mendoakanmu
selama mana puisi ini 'bernyawa'

Inna lillahi wa inna illaihi raji'un
(Dari Allah kita datang, dan kepadaNya lah kita kembali)


Alia Zul
Kelana Jaya
24 Januari 2010

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Perihal terkini hidup...

Lama tak update blog - sangat busy dengan dissertation.

Aku pun dah tak larat nak tengok dissertation. Dah tak lalu nak mengadap laptop dengan buku2 bersepah, dan jugak journal articles yang aku print dari various databases. Kadang2 bengang pun ada, kenapalah susah sangat nak habis!

Tambah bengang kalau supervisor tenggelam timbul. Adoyai! Tak bersemangat aku! Tapi alang2 menyeluk perkasam kan!

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Banyak benda jadi kebelakangan ni dekat ofis. Paling banyak adalah kejadian berhenti kerja hahaha. Yelah, nak buat macam mana, kalau ada rezeki tempat lain yang lebih baik (selalunya memang tempat lain offer lebih baik, cuma ...), lebih baik la berhijrah. Tapi hijrah menuntut pengorbanan.

Kalau aku berhijrah tahun ini, aku tak pasti sama ada aku akan turut terkorban. But sometimes, you just need to make that necessary move untuk merobah hidup kamu!

Entahlah...

To Hakim, good luck at your new 'home' and wish you all the best for August 1, 2010.
To Ajlaa, hope you are well and happier at the new place and we miss you!
To the rest, hidup mesti diteruskan walau apa pun!

And I hope that I will have the same courage as the others before me...insha Allah.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Fikir dua minit :P

Kadang2 rasa sempit sangat otak ni nak buat decision...

dia cakap kat aku don't judge, kalau la mudah...

without judgement and evaluation would i be able to come to a decision?

herm...pk2 lagi baik tido kejap hehehe...

goodnite people.

salam.

Saturday, December 05, 2009

Updates...

Lama aku tak mengarang di sini...mungkin kerana sekarang aku punya fb (unfortunately it is not bf), jadi kurang masa aku ke sini.

Quick updates:

perihal aku? masih lagi struggling, masih lagi pendidik, masih lagi single, masih lagi menulis puisi, masih lagi dikurniakan sihat dan anugerah yang tak terbilang.

perihal dunia aku? tak banyak beza, cuma kini aku sedang dalam istirehat yang ku kira panjang... bukan dari penulisan, cuma dari kerja yang rasmi. lebih fokus pada famili dalam menafsir diri.

perihal dunia dia? masihkah aku mau ambil tahu sedang dia tidak ingin aku ambil tahu? aku benci kelemahan, dan dia masih lagi kelemahan aku. selagi aku tidak belajar menerima keadaan, selagi itu dia kelemahan aku. dan selagi dia kelamahan aku selagi itu aku tidak bebas.

'persona' bukan semestinya merujuk kepada penulis. teks bukan ditulis untuk makna permukaan, subteks bisa diketemu di dasar andai bijak melihat.

Monday, September 14, 2009

You know you're addicted when...

1) Everytime you close your eyes, you start seeing cows, plowed lands, rabbits, trees etc.
2) You no longer check your email on daily basis, instead you click the corn icon and get busy harvesting and planting new things.
3) You try to concentrate on your work, but your mind keeps thinking about your crops.
4) You beg your friends to send you good stuff to add to what you have.
5) You become extra nice and start to help everyone (truth is you wanna earn that XP hehehe)

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Caution: To those who haven't tried playing Farmville on FB...ha cepat2, let's get 'intoxicated'!