For scolding sake!

Sometimes scolding a person will make you feel like a sinner. Although the person really deserves such a blow, you'd still feel bad about it. Last night, I scolded my two juniors in tkd partly because I was scolded earlier by my Chief Instructor. The reason was pretty simple - both of them gave up during the colourbelt team sparring event. The spared half-way and decided that they couldn't take it anymore so they threw in the white flag. Supposedly, only the team manager has the right to make such an important decision - and guess lah, who's the malang team manager - ME!

I did plan to scold these two kids, I had been rehearsing my "speech" on my way to the centre. But, when I reached there, I decided to ask Loga to do the talking. At first, it was OK, but I simply couldn't hold myself back when Ms.Potter kept on "menjawab" (I couldn't find the appropriate word in English that will retain the meaning in Bahasa) every single word that Loga uttered.

"You shouldn't give up so easily to your opponent. And you, Ms.D, you were winning the game! How could you simply walk away from the match?!"

Ms.D told me that her legs were injured, and showed me her shin. Didn't see any bruises on it though. And Ms.Potter said her eyes were hit by her opponent. I became even angrier.

"I was kicked quite badly during the tourney, and bruises on shins are normal (in sparring), but did I quit? Loga's nose was bleeding like hell, but he didn't quit, did he? As a team manager I won't let you die in the ring lah!"

Of course lah, we didn't allow Loga to continue the fight because his nose was fractured. The most important thing is the semangat kesukanan. It was a team event. Ms.Potter and Ms.D were not only responsible to themselves but also to the rest of the team. If it was an individual event, I won't even bother to give them such lengthy lecture!

Ms.Potter as usual, tak reti2 nak berhenti menjawab. I told her that Xin Yi, the third fighter in her team, didn't quit half-way. She was only 11 years old and she could think better than Ms.Potter and Ms.D.
Ms. Potter then argued that Xin Yi didn't even win the match, although she deserved to.

"Aiyo, winning or losing...it's the jury's job to determine! You ah, once you've decided to spar, you should continue till the time-keeper blows the whistle!"

"Yalah, we still lose rite!"

"Ayy, you ah...(took a deep breath) WE, most of us, your seniors at Legends are pretty offended with you attitude, you know. You like to menjawab so much. I said one thing, you'll say another 10 things! I'm 21 this year, and you're only 14. If you can't respect me as a black belt can't you respect me just as a person who's older than you? I'm older than Loga, Siew Pang, and I'm even older than you brother, you know. So please lah, give us some due respect. Not only for me but for all the senior belts"

At this point, Mitch and Pin mencelah, "and the juniors as well".

Two reasons why I was so damned angry with Ms.Potter

- because she treated me like a small kid, slapping my shoulders out of a sudden, tarik my baju lah, teasing me in the class etc.
- Malays like to say this "suka menjawab cakap orang tua"

ehehehe...now, I feel like an orang tua :).


During the training, Ms.Potter locked herself up in the toilet. Pin told me she was crying. Aiyak, that's another weakness of mine. Can't stand when people cry lah. When I went back home last night, I felt sorry for her. I shouldn't have scolded her in the class. I should have waited till everybody's gone back home. Tapi, nak buat macam mana kan, sometimes s*** happens!

I could sometimes be a very frank person. When I don't like something, I'd rather say it out loud (depends on the context jugak lah!) than keeping it inside and then let it burst like the volcanoes. She might be angry with me today, tomorrow, and the rest of her training days in Legends, but if I didn't tell her the truth she might even face bigger problems when she step outside into the harsh world - the real world! Maybe someday, unconsciously she'd be thanking me for scolding her...but, don't count on it hehehe.

Now, I feel very much relieved. Ms.Potter, if you're still angry with me, I'm sorry because I was harsh to you last night, but think of the content of my lenghty speech instead of the way I delivered it ^__^, then perhaps, you'll be able to take it as an advice from an older friend.

(Yeah, I know, you're grateful that you didn't have me as your sister hahaha)