"Di Sebalik" Fauziah Latiff - A dream of a child

I bought Fauziah Latiff's latest compilation, "Di Sebalik". Most of the songs in the album are my favourites. The cover is nice, I like the picture of Johan and the two kids standing on the sandy beach looking straight at the ocean, the picture was taken from behind - you could only see the back of their heads and body, the sea and the beach.

Fauziah Latiff is one of my favourite local singers. I always get this funny look whenever I tell my friends that I'm a fan of hers. The lines of disbelief, and doubt could be traced on their faces.

"Of all singers Alia, takkan Jee kot"

"You, ballads? You, Fauziah Latiff? You must be joking rite"

"You look tough outside, fragile inside is it? Handle with care? hahahaha"

And you guys won't believe how far they'd go to tease me during my hostel years. So what! If you can adore all those dangdut singers, and those sengau boy bands, why can't I like Jee's songs?
I started listening to Fauziah Latiff when I was in primary school, I was eight or nine then. Didn't know how I get so hooked up with her songs. I did few silly things back then, I wrote to Jee few times (she was with Happy Record at that time, so I posted the letters to the company's address), curi-curi to buy her cassette, and taiko was my ally in this "crime". Mom would get angry if she knows that we spend our allowance on these kind of things, the unnecessary things - we had gone through a tough time before, so have to be careful with money. I tore Jee's posters from my uncle's magazines, I didn't grow up on entertainment magazines and up to this day I won't waste my money on it hehe.
There were few times when I asked my dad to post my letters to Jee, he made fun of me.

"Itu PRO dia yang baca kalau ada masa lah, I guarantee you, she won't reply your mails"

"Apa pulak, dia kata dia balas surat peminat, so she will reply!"

And dad would laugh at my stupidity and stubbornness, by the end of the day, he'd go to the red mailbox and throw the mail inside it. So it's true...Fauziah Latiff has never and would never reply my mails...I stopped writing to her when I was in form One. I can't be stupid and silly forever rite!! I still can remember some of the stupid things that I wrote, but I'm so embarrassed by that memory, so I won't share them here...(drop my water face lah nanti)
I used to hang Jee's posters on the wall in my room, but I tore them off when lukluk scolded me, "buat semak bilik je!!". Still have the picture of me standing beside Jee's poster.
When I was in form 1, I had a sort of clique, Tun was one of the members. We wrote our wishes and dreams on papers, put them in a bottle and threw it into a river. One of my wishes - "Hope to meet Fauziah Latiff one day"
I think I saw Jee once in her metallic black Merc, the plate number starts with JEE ****. Fauziah Latiff has influenced me a lot, in ways that I don't know how to describe and for that reason I would adore her, even if she can't sing at the present time...and I still hope that I'd be able to meet her one day...