Sometimes, I feel so confused about myself, my life and everything that has got to do with it. I wake up in the morning not wanting to do the same routine yet I have no other choice. Not even sure whether this is the life that I dreamed of, don't even know if this is the right path to the desired life. I'm sitting here re-thinking of my life, my childishness and my maturity...the transitions. I'm entering the adulthood phase but I'm worried that I'm not yet ready for it, I'm lost and need guidance. Trusting a person is perhaps the hardest thing to do in life, not that I feel threaten by anyone...but I just hate failures and frustrating endings. It is safer to stay in the land that I created in my mind, not having to grow, not having to worry of anything, and not having to decide - avoiding the painful reality. I've lost so many times in this battle and am not prepared to lose (again) things that have never been mine...